Today really a big and bad bad days in my life forever le T_T
today i have done an hit and run action while i am driving i olady lose m confident in driving anymoreT^T
but because i need to work i still need to drive in and out for whole day i really suck up with this kind of days ( need to drive everyday )
every month sure got one accident occurred form the first day i start to drive to work. T_T
I think that i am not suitable to drive anymore liao T_T
i hope that i will quickly pass all my paper then i will RUN away from here and leave the unsweet memories being cover in myself and nobody will not know about it any more ^^
but if i didnt write it out i really cant overcome my self instinct i always feel out the hit and the wrong deed i have done ... T_T
i hope that i can pass this feel as fast as i can because really sad and feel guilty and it make me cant drive concentrate and i scared that i will make an bigger accident ever T_T
i really dont want this thing happen again T_T
Everytime i got problem that i dont want to share with my closest frens and my family i will write at here because i know that it will not be read by other ppl until the time i really put all this thing down in my live...
i always try to be as safe as i could but when something that make me anxious i will change my behaviour and i will very mad i really hope with GOD ｉ ｃａｎ ｃｈａｎｇｅ ｍｙself not always so fast angry and i will make accident occur again i really dont want this thing happen agian i will need to find way to reduce my anger
and improve my anger management behaviour liao T_T
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
The unlucky month (August)
This is the really bad month for me in this year le T_T
Dunno why this month i really spent a lot of unwanted money for my car haiz....
But not only that jz today i still nearly make an accident by myself jz want to crash
over the bump beside the road one le ....really thx GOD about it le if not i think i will crash for another time le ....XD
Actually i really cant think about why the accident will be happen on me ....T_T
Beside me, my frens oso didnt even see a motorbike beside me one that stay with us so near one lah
this really dont make sense one ... but the truth is it really happen in front of my eye and the accident really occured T_T
i think that may be this is one of the lesson that GOD want me to learn about it for my carelessness and all my overconfidence behaviour .
But from this accident i really learn a lot loh .....jz that my father suffer a lot T_T
Beside need to help me pay for the cost of accident he also need to repair the car because the shape of the car olady change and need to do it back to original will ne another few hundred ringgit for me ....
Hope that when i drive GOD will always be with me and never leave me alone anymore . Amen
God is really real in this world He is the one who protect us all the way we leave.
Dunno why this month i really spent a lot of unwanted money for my car haiz....
But not only that jz today i still nearly make an accident by myself jz want to crash
over the bump beside the road one le ....really thx GOD about it le if not i think i will crash for another time le ....XD
Actually i really cant think about why the accident will be happen on me ....T_T
Beside me, my frens oso didnt even see a motorbike beside me one that stay with us so near one lah
this really dont make sense one ... but the truth is it really happen in front of my eye and the accident really occured T_T
i think that may be this is one of the lesson that GOD want me to learn about it for my carelessness and all my overconfidence behaviour .
But from this accident i really learn a lot loh .....jz that my father suffer a lot T_T
Beside need to help me pay for the cost of accident he also need to repair the car because the shape of the car olady change and need to do it back to original will ne another few hundred ringgit for me ....
Hope that when i drive GOD will always be with me and never leave me alone anymore . Amen
God is really real in this world He is the one who protect us all the way we leave.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Happy christmas ~~
Look like already at least one or two months didnt come here to write anything lo~~
can say like now i am quite busy with the church fellowship...and the camp for the March one ...
wahahaha
But GOD sure will help me to overcome it and try the best to help me and i will try my est to do it..^^
Actually when i read back what i write...
Really feel that time can make person to forget or put down sometihng that is hard for a person to put down..
Now i can say that i hope i am totally put it down again....
Maybe this time i will put down is because i am busy enough with my study .... my work...and my position in my fellowship that always need me to care about and make me dont have time to think about other thing anymore..XD
Maybe this is also one of the way let me forget and dint have the time to think something stupid and daydreaming anymore...
Now look back wad i write really feel that i am too childish ...
But that can known as puppy love or not i oso cant give a accurate answer...XD
But for me i really happy that now i can go bakc to have my normal life and dont have anything that interrupt my life anymore..
And now jz got a lot ofthing need me to worry about and work it out...
The new year is coming
so prepare myself and have a new life that at least can devote myself for the fellowship...
MAy GOD bless me and all of the pple in the world. AMEn..
can say like now i am quite busy with the church fellowship...and the camp for the March one ...
wahahaha
But GOD sure will help me to overcome it and try the best to help me and i will try my est to do it..^^
Actually when i read back what i write...
Really feel that time can make person to forget or put down sometihng that is hard for a person to put down..
Now i can say that i hope i am totally put it down again....
Maybe this time i will put down is because i am busy enough with my study .... my work...and my position in my fellowship that always need me to care about and make me dont have time to think about other thing anymore..XD
Maybe this is also one of the way let me forget and dint have the time to think something stupid and daydreaming anymore...
Now look back wad i write really feel that i am too childish ...
But that can known as puppy love or not i oso cant give a accurate answer...XD
But for me i really happy that now i can go bakc to have my normal life and dont have anything that interrupt my life anymore..
And now jz got a lot ofthing need me to worry about and work it out...
The new year is coming
so prepare myself and have a new life that at least can devote myself for the fellowship...
MAy GOD bless me and all of the pple in the world. AMEn..
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
boring...sort of...XD
haiz...
this few days feel a sort of boring loh..
nth to do always go to school play nothing..for play to play..
dunno wad to do..T.T
study oso no mood do other thing oso dont have the objective..
life like a living corpse and feel that nth for me to stay for in this world..T.T
sometime feel that this is life..
but sometime think that i dont want my life jz like that and flew away from my eyesight..(roar)
i want to do more and try to be the best to conquer to order not being order the stress of jobless come into my life and the pressure that gave by parent of finding job is come always but they never know about it and i never want to tell them abd dont want tell my fren either..XD
bcause this is my life i dont want other ppl worried about me i jz want to carry my burden myself although sometime i will try to seek help from god but sometime jz cannot admit that i always try my best b4 i seek help from GOD..T.T
may be i have a very high confidence on myself and never want to seek help from fren or GOD neither..
but when the problem really came..
and i cant afford i go to find GOD but not seek help from HIM but is go there to blame HIM why became like that.T.T
but GOD will use HIS way to tell me wad i wan and why i will be like that..
although sometime i dont want to admit it but that is true that i am easily to suspicious something that happen aroud me and i have a very good imaginative that no make my life more colourful but make it more terror more horrible than ever...T.T
now my life a bit boring ..no night life not going out find fren "yam cha" so bored until want to kill ppl..XD
play games until boring and really horrible if a person that is nth to do..
wad they need to do only sleeping , eating, and do nothing..
now i can feel that the old ppl feel now..
bcause they will be like that and much more they cant do anything about it but only can accept the faith on it..hahaha
this few days feel a sort of boring loh..
nth to do always go to school play nothing..for play to play..
dunno wad to do..T.T
study oso no mood do other thing oso dont have the objective..
life like a living corpse and feel that nth for me to stay for in this world..T.T
sometime feel that this is life..
but sometime think that i dont want my life jz like that and flew away from my eyesight..(roar)
i want to do more and try to be the best to conquer to order not being order the stress of jobless come into my life and the pressure that gave by parent of finding job is come always but they never know about it and i never want to tell them abd dont want tell my fren either..XD
bcause this is my life i dont want other ppl worried about me i jz want to carry my burden myself although sometime i will try to seek help from god but sometime jz cannot admit that i always try my best b4 i seek help from GOD..T.T
may be i have a very high confidence on myself and never want to seek help from fren or GOD neither..
but when the problem really came..
and i cant afford i go to find GOD but not seek help from HIM but is go there to blame HIM why became like that.T.T
but GOD will use HIS way to tell me wad i wan and why i will be like that..
although sometime i dont want to admit it but that is true that i am easily to suspicious something that happen aroud me and i have a very good imaginative that no make my life more colourful but make it more terror more horrible than ever...T.T
now my life a bit boring ..no night life not going out find fren "yam cha" so bored until want to kill ppl..XD
play games until boring and really horrible if a person that is nth to do..
wad they need to do only sleeping , eating, and do nothing..
now i can feel that the old ppl feel now..
bcause they will be like that and much more they cant do anything about it but only can accept the faith on it..hahaha
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
朋友VS情侣
这一次打算用华语了。。。
朋友之间能有礼让精神为什么到达了情侣阶段就很像要情侣配合你而不是互相礼让呢？？
感觉上当一个朋友变成情侣后她们会很怀旧以前还没变成情侣时的事情。。
因为她们还是朋友所以都会互相让对方。。。
一旦成为情侣后。。
事情就变了。。
我也不知道为什么啦。。XD
有时候会觉得我追不到我喜欢的女生是好还是坏。。。T.T
因为我和她自少海能成为好朋友而不是成为陌生人。。
但是和她没有更近一步的发展却有点伤心的说。。T.T
虽说我要放下我对她的感情但是说是容易啊。。。T.T
要做是却很难啊！！！！
我已经试着放下这段感情了。。
自认风流的我想不到追得第一个女生就被拒绝了
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。
自以为能很容易放下这段感情的我想不到还是放不下。。T.T
没有的时候还可以有了之后就放不下真可怜啊。。T.T
朋友之间能有礼让精神为什么到达了情侣阶段就很像要情侣配合你而不是互相礼让呢？？
感觉上当一个朋友变成情侣后她们会很怀旧以前还没变成情侣时的事情。。
因为她们还是朋友所以都会互相让对方。。。
一旦成为情侣后。。
事情就变了。。
我也不知道为什么啦。。XD
有时候会觉得我追不到我喜欢的女生是好还是坏。。。T.T
因为我和她自少海能成为好朋友而不是成为陌生人。。
但是和她没有更近一步的发展却有点伤心的说。。T.T
虽说我要放下我对她的感情但是说是容易啊。。。T.T
要做是却很难啊！！！！
我已经试着放下这段感情了。。
自认风流的我想不到追得第一个女生就被拒绝了
哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。
自以为能很容易放下这段感情的我想不到还是放不下。。T.T
没有的时候还可以有了之后就放不下真可怜啊。。T.T
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
hoho
a very long time didnt come here to write le...
feels that already a quater of year didnt write not because of busy..
but is nth to write le..
feel like a person that has nth to do but always play around with the world...~.~
yesterday feel bored so go to mega ( eating placeand got cyber) ...
actually want to go there play dota...
but when i meet my fren at there he invite me play chinese chess with...
heck i play 10 round with him only win a round only T.T
dunno why i am so lousy in playing this kind of strategies game loh...
after that i don wan to play anymore bcause i am headache liao...XD
not bcause i always lose to him so i give up oh.....
but really feel tired and i still got class in the evening de leh.....
this blog actually i dont want my fren to find it ...
but yesterday or few days before my fren actually find my blog and try to pubkish it liao..=.=
really dunno wad is he thinking about lah...
but today got time come here to blogging bcause i really dunno wad to do anymore liao...XD
bcause my fren delete the dota( a strategies game) from her pc liao...T.T
so come here to blogging and try to find out more about myself...
last few weeks i got read a book title" dare to fail" before i go to check my CAT result....
at that time i feel that fail is a road that must walk by all ppl only how we fail is different ....
so from that time i want to find a opportunity to fail bcause until now i still havent got any failure in my education except my love la..XD
but that one i already dont feel anything liao..
bcause we still need to stand up from there we cant always fall down at there and dont want to stand up aymore..
so i try to focus on my study when i got class lah..
although sometime i will feel lonely..T.T
but nth i can do...
i dont want to disturb her life anymore... and she got the ppl she like oso liao..haha
so this make me can straight away to cut through all kind of feeling i got on her..
but now already dont have feel liao..
only treat her as good fren le...
although ppl say that never has a guy can be fren forever with a girl lah..XD
forgot to say that...
haha
my result is come out liao..
so happy i pass all of the papers and feel likee my breath is come back to me again ...XD
really too long didnt blogging liao now feel tired of typing liao..XD
so will stop here for a while first...XD
feels that already a quater of year didnt write not because of busy..
but is nth to write le..
feel like a person that has nth to do but always play around with the world...~.~
yesterday feel bored so go to mega ( eating placeand got cyber) ...
actually want to go there play dota...
but when i meet my fren at there he invite me play chinese chess with...
heck i play 10 round with him only win a round only T.T
dunno why i am so lousy in playing this kind of strategies game loh...
after that i don wan to play anymore bcause i am headache liao...XD
not bcause i always lose to him so i give up oh.....
but really feel tired and i still got class in the evening de leh.....
this blog actually i dont want my fren to find it ...
but yesterday or few days before my fren actually find my blog and try to pubkish it liao..=.=
really dunno wad is he thinking about lah...
but today got time come here to blogging bcause i really dunno wad to do anymore liao...XD
bcause my fren delete the dota( a strategies game) from her pc liao...T.T
so come here to blogging and try to find out more about myself...
last few weeks i got read a book title" dare to fail" before i go to check my CAT result....
at that time i feel that fail is a road that must walk by all ppl only how we fail is different ....
so from that time i want to find a opportunity to fail bcause until now i still havent got any failure in my education except my love la..XD
but that one i already dont feel anything liao..
bcause we still need to stand up from there we cant always fall down at there and dont want to stand up aymore..
so i try to focus on my study when i got class lah..
although sometime i will feel lonely..T.T
but nth i can do...
i dont want to disturb her life anymore... and she got the ppl she like oso liao..haha
so this make me can straight away to cut through all kind of feeling i got on her..
but now already dont have feel liao..
only treat her as good fren le...
although ppl say that never has a guy can be fren forever with a girl lah..XD
forgot to say that...
haha
my result is come out liao..
so happy i pass all of the papers and feel likee my breath is come back to me again ...XD
really too long didnt blogging liao now feel tired of typing liao..XD
so will stop here for a while first...XD
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
first blog
a strange place that full of never remember the small little thing that make him happy.T.T
is this human???
i think so loh..bcause i m like that de XD
just want to share some of the feeling at here that will never show in front of all my frens XD
i reallly cant differencite whether they are playing with u or just play u around that make me really frustrated with my frens but in case of it i dont want them think that i am very small tempered..
T.T
i have been fall in love to my classmate XD
but she rejected me liao ...
haiz....T.T
but i really dont get it why will she reject me loh..
although i am not so handsome lah XD but i am not very ugly too mah...=.="
in this blog i will not show it to my fellow frens loh..
if not they will surely chop me off and kick me into the toilet bowl liao..XD
actually i will write this out is bcause i dont want it hide in my heart i want to show it out i still love her but i dont dare to say it again to her bcause i scare that next time she will try to play "hide and seek" with me...T.T
this is my first blog lah..
i will try to post anything in my life at here and show to all of u that i never know about..XD
is this human???
i think so loh..bcause i m like that de XD
just want to share some of the feeling at here that will never show in front of all my frens XD
i reallly cant differencite whether they are playing with u or just play u around that make me really frustrated with my frens but in case of it i dont want them think that i am very small tempered..
T.T
i have been fall in love to my classmate XD
but she rejected me liao ...
haiz....T.T
but i really dont get it why will she reject me loh..
although i am not so handsome lah XD but i am not very ugly too mah...=.="
in this blog i will not show it to my fellow frens loh..
if not they will surely chop me off and kick me into the toilet bowl liao..XD
actually i will write this out is bcause i dont want it hide in my heart i want to show it out i still love her but i dont dare to say it again to her bcause i scare that next time she will try to play "hide and seek" with me...T.T
this is my first blog lah..
i will try to post anything in my life at here and show to all of u that i never know about..XD
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