上帝的恩典^^

我们活着时所发生的每一件事都不是偶然的！！！
我真的很感谢主我这几天都有酱的感触！！
我们生活上发生的每一件事我们都应该向神感恩的啦！！^^
因为我现在真的看见了上帝的奇妙和他的真实！！
而且这几天我也发现了一些事情叻
原来我很喜欢为了一些我得不到的东西而不爽好几个小时下去呢～～
但是我却不会为了我这几天得到的东西而感到开心咯～～
可能这就是我太贪心的结果所造成的咯T-T
这是我现在尽量想改变的事情咯~~
当我们把每一件事发生在我们身上时都是一种恩典的话我们会活得比较快乐也不会想太多咯哈哈
这一次只是写了一些蛮有感触的东西所以会比较短哇哈哈哈
今天鱼很像有意避开我了让我觉得怪怪的但是我却不敢去问她为什么如此。。。
可能是我心里出一些问题吧哈哈哈

有事了～～

回想一下我真是蛮久没来这里玩了咯～～
通常我写的东西我根本不喜欢和人分享就如我的性格T-T
钱钱钱～～～
以前算是我最渴望也是最容易让我犯罪的一件看似可爱的玩意儿但也有可能被玩回头～～
进入真题！！！
对爱情这个玩意儿我看是时间收手了～～
或者说是时间放手了也可以咯呵呵;p
我现在一定要好好定下我的目标了我这几个月来根本是漫无目的的玩感情玩事业玩学业～～
弄的我自己一塌糊涂！！！！
一件事都没做好来！！真是失败透顶了啦～～
而且我真的要适可而止了我可能玩得太过头了咯～～
因为我玩到现在我根本没有真正的放感情进去因为我真的怕被伤害了我真的有恐惧症了
而且她已成为了我选的每一位女孩子的那一道防线了
虽然她现在有着男朋友，但是我看来还没真的放弃她～～
我希望她不会感觉到因为我真的很难才在跟她联络上我不想再破坏了
但是为了维持和她的交情我间接伤害了某个人的感情（可能而已啦，我也不知道的。。。）
因为我对她算是有一点情啦但是我根本没真正的喜欢上她而且她也有喜欢的人所以我本不想打扰她的。。。但是我却间接的把她当女朋友来看待让我试试看有多好咯
可是看来今天我真的玩过了火希望她不会避开或者生气我啦。。;p
对感情这一方面我真的不敢再和朋友说了因为真的很容易或说太容易被朋友出卖了也不能轻信他们所说的～～
因为我可能只是一个烟幕而已，。。但是却给他们说到像真的一样咯弄的我自己很辛苦很辛苦T-T
所以我现在不得不学习如何在他们讲这些事的时候我可以保持我的立场而且我一定要学会观察我身边的每一个人
但是我这么一做我们小组里就因为我自己的心态有问题而让整个小组变怪怪掉所以我不得不正视这个问题～～
想了这么久我觉得这应该不是我所能控制的事想太也于事无补所以我现在写进来这里之后我就放掉了
就算他们拿出来说我也会陪他们说因为我的心态我已经知道了我也不会那么容易动摇了我的立场～～
说真的可能鱼的立场也是很坚定的只是在说是有点虚浮罢了～～
是我低估了她可能我还成为了她的笑柄呢也说不定^^
把这些写出来了我开心许多了啦哈哈哈

Unpleasant feeling keep haunted me all the way T_T

Today really a big and bad bad days in my life forever le T_T
today i have done an hit and run action while i am driving i olady lose m confident in driving anymoreT^T
but because i need to work i still need to drive in and out for whole day i really suck up with this kind of days ( need to drive everyday )
every month sure got one accident occurred form the first day i start to drive to work. T_T
I think that i am not suitable to drive anymore liao T_T
i hope that i will quickly pass all my paper then i will RUN away from here and leave the unsweet memories being cover in myself and nobody will not know about it any more ^^
but if i didnt write it out i really cant overcome my self instinct i always feel out the hit and the wrong deed i have done ... T_T
i hope that i can pass this feel as fast as i can because really sad and feel guilty and it make me cant drive concentrate and i scared that i will make an bigger accident ever T_T
i really dont want this thing happen again T_T
Everytime i got problem that i dont want to share with my closest frens and my family i will write at here because i know that it will not be read by other ppl until the time i really put all this thing down in my live...
i always try to be as safe as i could but when something that make me anxious i will change my behaviour and i will very mad i really hope with GOD　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｍｙself not always so fast angry and i will make accident occur again i really dont want this thing happen agian i will need to find way to reduce my anger
and improve my anger management behaviour liao T_T

The unlucky month (August)

This is the really bad month for me in this year le T_T
Dunno why this month i really spent a lot of unwanted money for my car haiz....
But not only that jz today i still nearly make an accident by myself jz want to crash
over the bump beside the road one le ....really thx GOD about it le if not i think i will crash for another time le ....XD
Actually i really cant think about why the accident will be happen on me ....T_T
Beside me, my frens oso didnt even see a motorbike beside me one that stay with us so near one lah
this really dont make sense one ... but the truth is it really happen in front of my eye and the accident really occured T_T
i think that may be this is one of the lesson that GOD want me to learn about it for my carelessness and all my overconfidence behaviour .
But from this accident i really learn a lot loh .....jz that my father suffer a lot T_T
Beside need to help me pay for the cost of accident he also need to repair the car because the shape of the car olady change and need to do it back to original will ne another few hundred ringgit for me ....
Hope that when i drive GOD will always be with me and never leave me alone anymore . Amen
God is really real in this world He is the one who protect us all the way we leave.