Unpleasant feeling keep haunted me all the way T_T

Today really a big and bad bad days in my life forever le T_T
today i have done an hit and run action while i am driving i olady lose m confident in driving anymoreT^T
but because i need to work i still need to drive in and out for whole day i really suck up with this kind of days ( need to drive everyday )
every month sure got one accident occurred form the first day i start to drive to work. T_T
I think that i am not suitable to drive anymore liao T_T
i hope that i will quickly pass all my paper then i will RUN away from here and leave the unsweet memories being cover in myself and nobody will not know about it any more ^^
but if i didnt write it out i really cant overcome my self instinct i always feel out the hit and the wrong deed i have done ... T_T
i hope that i can pass this feel as fast as i can because really sad and feel guilty and it make me cant drive concentrate and i scared that i will make an bigger accident ever T_T
i really dont want this thing happen again T_T
Everytime i got problem that i dont want to share with my closest frens and my family i will write at here because i know that it will not be read by other ppl until the time i really put all this thing down in my live...
i always try to be as safe as i could but when something that make me anxious i will change my behaviour and i will very mad i really hope with GOD　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｃｈａｎｇｅ　ｍｙself not always so fast angry and i will make accident occur again i really dont want this thing happen agian i will need to find way to reduce my anger
and improve my anger management behaviour liao T_T